| Corny at best... |
[Dec. 3rd, 2007|11:09 pm] |
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...But still touching.
I've learned that, no matter what happens or how bad it seems today, life does go on and it will be better tomorrow.
I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles four things: a rainy day, the elderly, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.
I've learned that, regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.
I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as making a 'life.'
I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back.
I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you. But if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others, your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you.
I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.
I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to BE one.
People love that human touch -- holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. |
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| Smoking is the No. 1 cause of Statistics... |
[Dec. 2nd, 2007|10:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
Just for shits and giggles today, I figured out how much time I spend alone in an average week. Of the 168 hours in a week, I spend 122 (approx) alone. That's just shy of 3/4 of my time. To contrast this number, I figure I spend about 126 hours a week in the presence of my dog, Luca. I'm not a loser! I'm special and do pointless math problems in my head just for fun! Thank goodness I'm an introvert, eh? =) |
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| Anyone out there? |
[Nov. 28th, 2007|11:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | curious | ] |
I haven't even thought about posting to Lj in longer than I can remember. Is there anyone left out there that I know? Not that it will honestly make any difference...I'll probably continue to fail at keeping my journal up to date. Ha. cjf |
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| It's Hot. |
[May. 17th, 2006|12:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hot | ] |
So, how sad is it that my mom went to Texas and said that it was nice to escape from the heat? Very sad. Very sad indeed. |
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| Time for the Quarterly Report |
[May. 13th, 2006|12:58 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Silence | ] |
Well, things are going about like they always do...slow and largely boring. One of my coworkers is trying to set me up with a cage-fighting lead singer of a band called something I can't remember. He's cute and physically, he's just my type (a little taller, reddish hair, great eyes, lean) and he seemed super nice (he really loves his kitty), but why on earth would he be interested in me? I'm shy, sullen and chubby...but really sarcastic! Oh well, I should just follow the example of another coworker...She met someone on E-Harmony in January, started talking seriously with him in the middle of February, met him for the first time in the middle of March and married him before April was over. They spent less than a week in the same state before getting married. Nuts, I tell ya. Whatever, if it works for them, that's great. Clearly, all I need to do is become a devout Christian (sorry to shock those out there that didn't realize I wasn't already...) and fork over a bunch of money to a matchmaking service. I could be married to a complete stranger in no time! Whoopee! Oh well, I actually quite like my life of solitude at the moment, and I think I'd be quite disappointed if I had to share my home with another human being. I'm quite the bitch, huh?
Work is going well...I got a small raise and I'm getting some training in actually assisting doctors with patients. It's a lot more fun that answering phones and pretending to be cheerful all day long, even if I do have to express anal glands.
My business at least has a name now: "Pack Living" and we've designed a really neat logo. PACK is supposed to stand for Positive Animal Care & Kinship. If any of you need grooming or training advice, let me know! I do dogs, cats and horses.
Anyway, I'm driving back to Aloha to visit my family tomorrow morning, so I better get to bed...
Carly Warly Bo Barley, Banana Fana fo Farley, Me My Mo Marley...Carly! |
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| What a month this has been.... |
[Feb. 19th, 2006|11:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | rejected | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Back to Me/John Mayer | ] |
And it's not even over yet!!
Well, early in January I found that my crappy tiny college apartment was growing mold and the carpet had a remarkable resemblance to a swamp. It was time to move. So I searched and applied and was rejected...again and again. I finally found a cute little duplex in Springfield (hey, I may be a college grad, but I have a crappy paying job and can't afford to live on the other side of I-5 anymore!). I took possession on February 11th and started moving in. This also happens to be the day that a completely new computer system was installed at work. We are now paperless, and if you want to even ATTEMPT to imagine how that works with medical records, go ahead and try...I think you'll understand how this transition and moving should not have been done simultaneously. I worked for nine days straight (54 hours in one week) and moved in the evenings. Hence, you'll understand my surprise when I went to pick up dog food on February 14th ("Day 4" as I like to call it) and the guy working behind the meat counter asked me out! I was kind of psyched, until I found out a little more info about him. He's 22 years old, he smokes, he DOESN'T drink, he doesn't have a driver's license (and never has), he lives with his ex-girlfriend and her boyfriend, he still collects "Magic" cards, loves video games and was a self-described "hoodlum" when he was a kid. I think the kicker was when he said that he used to be really mean to handicapped people when he was a little kid. So here I am, quite put off by all this knowledge, but still kind of flattered and tempted to at least get to know him a little better (he seems like a very nice and sweet person, now). Then I find out that my ex-boyfriend is getting married. At the end of March. To a woman he's only known for 6 months. It made me feel a little...hmmm...crappy. Clearly, he and I were a bad match, but I keep wishing I could find someone who really enjoyed me and could possibly even love me and about whom I felt the same! *sigh* I'm not so anxious to be in a relationship that I'm going to jump into a bad one, but I'm starting to really feel like I'd like to share my life with someone. I've got quite a nice complement of wonderful friends, so I'm not lonely for company or anything like that. I guess I just want to know that I'm particularly special to someone. Oh well, same old gripe, eh?
The really good news is that I've got a new home! A good one, too! I'm trying to start a business (dog grooming and training) and, although it pays next to nothing, I'm enjoying my job (for now). Oh yeah, I also started doing search and rescue training with my dog, and he's got potential to be quite good at it, so I'm proud of him. =)
Take care all,
Carly |
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| I'm a Bum |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|07:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | BNL-If I Should Fall | ] |
Well,
I know there are few people who are at all interested in anything that I have to say or the activities of my life, but to those of you who are, I apologize for being a terrible friend and a bum. Life has been really good recently, and I have no reason to want to keep any of it a secret, I guess I'm just tired of staring at a computer screen by the time I get home that I barely can bring myself to check my email. Sometimes I don't even read it! And I almost NEVER reply (much to my cousin's chagrin). Oh well, enough self-pity, on with the "good" stuff...
I can't remember if I posted this already, but my brief romance with Michael came to an end when I realize that he had no interest in me as a person, just in me as a warm body. I don't know why I'm so attracted to unavailable men...hell, I'm still in love with (and think about constantly), someone I haven't seen in years! If that isn't unavailable, I don't know what is. I spent the summer working at the clinic as a receptionist (it's getting really old boring!). Business has been slow and we had a few really useless people on the staff, but otherwise work has basically been good. I did apply for a job at DPS on campus, but they ended up filling the position with someone who's been at the university for years and years...they didn't even finish processing the job applications. Oh well. I've been doing a lot more dog training and grooming (and getting paid!), which is helping me keep my sanity. The service dog organization has also been getting busier and busier over the last few months, which is great. We're still in desperate need of volunteers!! HINT!
My family is fine, my dogs and cats and horse are all fine, I'm still stuck in my awful little apartment...but at least I'm living alone and it's pretty cheap. I got slightly addicted to the TV show "24". I ended up renting the first three seasons and watching all the episodes in about a 3 week period. I'm glad that's over, and I'm really glad that I don't have TV...this way I'm forced to wait for season 4 until it's available to rent. Maybe I'll get some sleep, now.
Anyway, I'm single again and although I'd like to have a boyfriend, I'm sure as hell glad I don't have the last one I was with. Being single is much better. I've got some friends from the clinic that I hang out with once a week or so, as well as all my dog friends. I've very excited to have drinking buddies again! My last one became kind of useless when she got pregnant. That's an awful thing to say. Children are little miracles, but I hope to god that I never have to have one. |
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| I'm not dead yet! |
[May. 27th, 2005|08:16 pm] |
Everyone loves a good reference to Monty Python, eh?
Anyway, not much is going on in my life. I'm pretty damn happy, though. I'm in a relationship with a wonderful man for the first time in years! I've actually been in love with this guy since I met him last year, but he was in a relationship at the time. That ended this winter and then in April he admitted that he liked me. Yaay! Anyway, it's amazing and I'm so happy I can't hardly believe it. Just so y'all know, he's a bit older than me (by 19 years....) and most people think it's way too much of an age difference, but please trust me when I say it isn't. He also has two sons who live with his ex-wife. They are great kids. Anyway, that's about the only exciting thing going on in my life right now.
Oh yeah, except for HHGTG!!!! Not bad, but I still prefer the book
=) |
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| I'm back |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|10:16 am] |
Well, as some of you already know, December was kind of a hard month for me. Those of you who know the details probably don't want to hear them again, and those of you who haven't heard them yet should be relieved I haven't unburdened my problems on you.
Anyway, January was the complete polar opposite of December. I got a new job!!! I'm so excited I can barely contain myself. I'm working as a receptionist at a huge vet clinic in Springfield. I know, it's not very glamorous, but I'm so happy to finally be working with animals (sort of...mostly working with people who own animals, but it's close enough) that I don't care. I still plan to go to vet school eventually, but right now I'm happy to just take a break from school and focus on something else for a while. Anyway, if you're at all interested in knowing about McKenzie Animal Hospital, you can visit the website: www.mckenzieanimalhospital.com. It's a neat website and a neat clinic.
Nothing else new is going on in my life and that's probably for the best. I hope everyone is doing well!!!
Michelle, thank you for your friendship and support...just one phone conversation with you helped me more than you'll ever know. =) |
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| Another Survey |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|09:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Me and Julio Down by the School Yard | ] |
Alright, this one is by request, so no one can complain.
Place the following in order of most pleasurable:
1) Sneezing
2) Sleeping
3) Peeing
4) Pooping
5) Climaxing
6) Stretching
7) Laughing
8) Tasting something delicious
9) Hugging
10) Cracking joints
Oh, and just for the hell of it:
If you define cowardice as running away at the first sign of danger, screaming and tripping and begging for mercy, then yes, Mr. Brave man, I guess I'm a coward. |
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| Not the easiest way to get a free drink... |
[Dec. 5th, 2004|04:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Empty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Romeo and Juliet (Dire Straits) | ] |
If I lived back in the wild west days, instead of carrying a six-gun in my holster, I'd carry a soldering iron. That way, if some smart-aleck cowboy said something like "Hey, look. He's carrying a soldering iron!" and started laughing, and everybody else started laughing, I could just say, "That's right, it's a soldering iron. The soldering iron of justice." Then everybody would get real quiet and ashamed, because they had made fun of the soldering iron of justice, and I could probably hit them up for a free drink. |
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| I am so stupid.... |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|11:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | November Rain | ] |
OK, I give up. I'm just going to hide in my hole for the rest of my life. I'm so fucking mad right now I don't even know how to express it. Or for that matter, why I'm so mad to begin with! Probably mostly at myself, for being so naive. I keep thinking: "OK, so maybe I'm not the most attractive person in the world, and I know I could be thinner, but that's OK, it's my personality that someone will fall in love with, and the rest of it will just be overlooked, and I'll be accepted for who I am" Instead, I should realize that appearance is EVERYTHING. Or maybe I'm even more naive than that...maybe I've run across plenty of people who could love someone who looks like me, but my personality is so unattractive that they pass me by. Not that I'll ever know, of course, because you have to like someone before you're willing to tell them hard truths....and I suspect I'm just not likeable enough. And yes, I know being angry sad and depressed all the time doesn't help my case much. And yes, I know that stupid cliche "no one will love you until you love yourself" which is a bunch of shit, in my opinion. I tried that whole "love yourself" thing for a couple of years and it did no good. So, now I'm just going to do this, because at least I don't feel like such an idiot...just a pessimistic depressed fat girl. But at least I don't have to pretend like I'm unaware of the truth now. |
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| Another Vote |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|09:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Song for the Asking | ] |
Ok, y'all, which of the following things are important to you in dealing one on one with another human being?
1) being polite
2) eye contact
3) listening
4) asking questions about the other person
5) being honest
6) not talking too much about yourself
7) behavior appropriately for the situation
8) smiling
9) trying to be helpful when appropriate
10) complimenting as appropriate
Just taking a survey here....btw, Luca says that eye contact, licking and tail wagging are all anyone ever needs. Well, maybe a bark and a whine here and there. He's a simple boy when it comes to this stuff, and I like that about him. =) |
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| Alright |
[Dec. 1st, 2004|09:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Obvious Child (Paul Simon) | ] |
Well, Ok, fine, I'll update the few of you who seem to be interested in my personal life. Well, not that I have a "personal" life, per se...except in the sense that it belongs to me. Anyway...
The end of Fall term is upon us...I've taken my last class (ever?) and have one paper to turn in next monday. Then What? People keep asking me, and I have no clue. Maybe do a thesis, maybe just apply for graduation....maybe neither. I'm so tired of it all, and I just don't care right now! A steady job and something to do afterwards except sleep would suffice right now. Not that I'm complaining about my boring life, exactly...but I can see how this is going to get old eventually.
Anyway, I bought Shrek 2 and Harry Potter 3 (I'm too lazy to type out the full title...and we'll all just ignore the fact that I could have done that in much fewer words than this explanation is taking...), both highly entertaining movies. I introduced my family to The Cooler, and I think they enjoyed it. Maybe it's just me...it's just a really cool (yes, I know) movie! Anyway, Other than that, I don't have much to add to my movie watching news.
I've been reading a lot of Terry Pratchett recently. I suppose I should say re-reading, but some of these books have been sitting, unused, on my shelves for so long that I hardly remember what they're about.
My mom is coming to Eugene on Friday for a C.A.P. Christmas party. It's going to be remarkably dumb, I know this, but in a way that might just be enjoyable. We've been playing christmas music at work (much to some people's chagrin), and I think it's great. I love singing the songs I know in german along with the english versions. I've gotten a couple of "What on earth is wrong with you??" and a few "Is that a language??" and a few "How do you know the words to O Christmas Tree in German?" It's been a blast. I may not be the best german singer in the world, but I sure have no problem belting out those christmas tunes!! Thank goodness for Frau Johnson, eh? That was her name, wasn't it? Shit, now I'm not sure...oh well, it's not like anyone who reads this was in that class with me...oh, crap, almost everyone who reads this was in that class with me!!! Oh well, whatever her name was, I say we all go carolling some day...get really drunk and wander about shouting indecipherable german-esque song-like utterances.
OK, now I'm off to shower and go to sleep. Yes, I know it's only 9:30, but that's what us old folks do, you know. =) |
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| Please Cast Your Vote |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|10:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Inquiring | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wrap Your Arms Around Me (BNL) | ] |
For my own information, I would like the opinion of the few of you who read my Journal. Please rank in order of preference:
1) Deep Thoughts
2) Song Lyrics
3) Personal crap
I'm tending towards the first two and away from the third, because my life just isn't interesting enough, in my opinion. |
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| I Think I'll Disappear Now |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|10:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Crash Test Dummies | ] |
Running into you like this without warning
It like catching a sniff of tequila in the morning
But I'll try, I'll try to keep my food down
That's quite and after-taste that yopu've left now that you're not around
You can just pretend we're not in the same room
Well, alright, I'll just mosey to the bathroom
You flew by like a summer vacation
And you left me with TV-movies amd a messy kitchen
I think I'll disappear now, slip out sideways
Just for a while- but until then I'll stay in a sleep late, excuse me
I'll buy a fast car, I'll drive fast from here
There's a beach I haven't seen since last year-
It's far, but I like night drives;
If just makes it nicer where I do arrive
Aren't you going to miss me?
Aren't you goint to even say one thing to me anymore?
Well, you can bet that I'll forget how it was then:
All the drives to your farm for the weekend...
But I've seen the swimsuit magazines
And I've smelled the tequila first thing in the morning |
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| To Joel |
[Nov. 28th, 2004|10:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Another Postcard (BNL) | ] |
Well, here you go, I'm writing about our lunch in my journal. I had a great time, and I'd love to see you again soon. Hope you enjoyed the rest of your weekend!!! *hugs* |
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| Home again... |
[Nov. 28th, 2004|09:58 pm] |
She likes to sleep with the radio on
So she can dream of her favorite song
The one that no one has ever sung since she was small
She'll never know that she made it up
She had a soul and we ate it up
Thrown away like a paper cup
The music falls
The only flaw in her detailed plan
Is where she wins back the love of her man
Everyone knows that he's never coming back
He took her heart and she took his name
He couldn't stand taking all the blame
He left her only with guilt and shame and then she cracked
Won't it be dull when we rid ourselves
Of all these demons haunting us
To keep us company
In the dream I refuse to have
She falls asleep in a lukewarm bath
We're left to deal with the aftermath again
On behalf of humanity
I will fight for your sanity
How profound such profanity can be
Won't it be dull when we rid ourselves
Of all these demons haunting us
To keep us company
Won't it be odd to be happy like we
Always thought we're supposed to feel
But never seem to be
Near where I live there's a viaduct
Where people jump when they're out of luck
Raining down on the cars and trucks below
They've put a net there to catch their fall
Like it'll stop anyone at all
What they don't know is when nature calls, you go
They say that Jesus and mental health
Are just for those who can help themselves
But what good is that when you live in hell on earth?
From the very fear that makes you want to die
Is just the same as what keeps you alive
It's way more trouble than some suicide is worth
Won't it be dull when we rid ourselves
Of all these demons haunting us
To keep us company
Won't it be odd to be happy like we
Always thought we're supposed to feel
But never seem to be
Hard to admit I fought the war on drugs
My hands were tied and the phone was bugged
Another died and the world just shrugged it off
(BNL, "War on Drugs") |
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| A Very Special Holiday Deep Thought |
[Nov. 24th, 2004|06:35 pm] |
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If you're at a Thanksgiving dinner, but you don't like the stuffing or the cranberry sauce or anything else, just pretend like you're eating it, but instead, put it all in your lap and form it into a big mushy ball. Then, later, when you're out back having cigars with the boys, let out a big fake cough and throw the ball to the ground. Then say, "Boy, these are good cigars!" |
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| 3 Deep Thoughts |
[Nov. 23rd, 2004|09:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Radio... | ] |
1) I don't think I'm alone when I say I'd like to see more and more planets fall under the ruthless domination of our solar system.
2) Dad always thought laughter was the best medicine, which I guess is why several of us died of tuberculosis.
3) The face of a child can say it all, especially the mouth part of the face. |
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